Observation

Last week i didn't practice Zen meditation, because i wanted two things; to reevaluate this way of meditation and to observe my reactions in those days without the support of Zen.
The two first days, i remember clearly that my feeling were ok, i didn't notice great changes on myself. But at the end of the second day, i did notice that something with my thoughts was going separate of my mind, very strange.
The morning after, at the third day, i saw a rat in the garden. The rat was calm and she did saw me but left in complete peace, just going away from me. It was like that rat took the time of the world for disappear and from inside the nest just wait for me to left too. On the other side i was petrified because i saw that rat, a fobia against the image of this animals developed long ago and i notice that my body temperature was cooling down, in a millisecond! real fast, how not to notice that?... then i walk without looking back and left that rat be in peace. Until i was on the street i try to recapitulate the situation and asked to myself the reason for the fobia and reaction.
As a result, this week i observe some lost with connections, but gain another kind of connection to my feelings. With the practice of just sit down i have an opportunity with main functions and realize that without the practice, it feels like have the switch of power down and functions are going lost or in automatic mode.